Why Not?

In my travels now of meet and greets people ask me am I married? No Have I ever been married? No, marriage is sacred to me and I only want to do it once. Have I ever been engaged? Yes What happened? I had marriage/commitment phobia and was a runner, as soon as I get the ring I am looking for the exit door. Like the run away bride, I was the run away engagement woman. Last year I was thinking of marriage and all my close friends and family laughed, shook their head and said not you. I was so serious but they know about my commitment phobia, and me being a runner. The other problem was the woman the man knew was "my Representative." No one knew the real me, that bothered me. Why would I marry someone who does not know the whole, real me, nor took the time to know the real me? Not going to work. A spiritual soul connection was missing also. Now, some may laugh again at me, there comes a time in your life when you think about partnership. I now want the commitment, sharing your life, your space,ups-downs, good-bad, highs-lows, success and failures,etc. You know the drill. Why put it out there? Well the Universe is funny and obedience is key. One has to be true to self and some things rather private, sometimes need to be somewhat public. Being ready to settle down, partner up, be a team player is where I am and where I would like to stay. I am no longer a runner or a commitment/marriage phoebe. You get tired of running businesses and carrying the load all by yourself. Help is so important. The "Representative" has been fired as of a year ago. so Why Not?