Forgiveness

Forgiveness is a beautiful thing. I am no stranger to forgiveness and its power. I have taken the time to sit and go through a list of people who I forgave and thought that I had forgave. But in prayer the names came up again. So once again I have forgave them and forgave myself for any judgement I have put on me. It's odd because we don't really realize that we will judge our actions and thoughts about how we feel and how we handle a situation. My name came up the the list. Forgiveness is freeing and it allows God to step in and handle everything from here on out. I was troubled because for a minute, as much as I love God I wondered why and how on many a subject.The devil seeks and destroys your hopes, dreams, promises, and joy. He was creeping into my life telling me lies and stories. I could hear him telling me the lies and as much as I told him get the behind me.. you are a liar, he persisted. I had to look with in myself and see what is causing him not to flee from me.I was thinking about self, and self can get you in a whole mess of trouble. I am a praying sister. I will pray for anyone at the drop of a dime. I am caring and a giver. But I didn't want to care anymore. I didn't want to pray for anyone anymore. I was beginning to grow cold. Satan can't do anything with out God's permission. So why had God let Satan attack me? He was telling me curse God, he's blessing everyone you pray for stop praying for those people, don't forgive them. I can say it was a tough fight. I love God and just like Job I was not going to curse God. I looked in my closet of hurt and betrayal and forgave. I gave my enemies over to Him. Forgiveness has caused that devil to flee from me. It took me from the things I love and enjoy. My zeal to pray for others, to lend a helping hand, to always give to anyone. My zeal to write to share. I love people and didn't want to be around people. I went into isolation. I prayed for answers and I got them. Was I ready for the answers when I recieved them, no. But I had to become ready. God has blessings on my life that I am ready for,and yours too, don't let satan block your promises with his lies. He set me back a little it's ok, God's timing is perfect, I had to move myself out the way. Thank You Father for forgiveness.