Today


Today I don't know what i want
Today nothing even matters
Today I realize you're not the friend I thought I had
Today my heart hurts and I feel betrayed
Today I look at you and wonder
Today I ask was it all a show"
Today....I just don't know
Today it's raining outside
Today I wish I could cry
Today I ask myself why
Today I miss the the friendship
Today I miss being alone
Today I hate being alone
Today I know it was meant to be
Today I see how sharp your knife really is
Today I see this is common for you
Today you blew me off
Today I am stronger now
Today I want to give you an award for "best actor"
Today I laugh at you
Today I laugh at me
Today things are never what they seem
That's today who know's becauses there is always....tomorrow

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